Hidden Revelation

My divorced friends project
their flavor of loneliness
onto never married me

But they've had a spouse with
whom they've shared a house
with whom they've shared a bed

For me, it's only been me
calling my space my home
having the bed to myself

And they conceived children
who made children themselves
and created grandparents

And I have what they lacked
even twenty years ago
ever single loneliness

And I pray that they get
a new start, a new spouse
a new comfort by their side

And I share now, alone here
that I am maybe ready
to try for the first time