I have many poems stored away, 
perhaps I'll share them another day, 
or perhaps - and don't find this odd - 
I'll keep them just between me and G-d, 
perhaps tomorrow we will all grow wings, 
and Ray Davies will prove right - it will bring better things, 
perhaps I will fill my biggest hole 
and connect with the internal rock star in my soul, 
perhaps I'll repent for all the unhealthy foods I ate, 
and my endless hunger will begin to abate, 
perhaps through poetry everyone will shine, 
you'll show me your poems and yes - I'll show you mine, 
perhaps oh perhaps I will stop asking why 
and I'll I'll accept with calm breath rather than a sigh
perhaps oh perhaps we'll all cherish our health, 
and though it seems so obvious we'll value it more than wealth, 
perhaps oh perhaps we'll let go and let things be, 
perhaps tomorrow you'll truly be you and I'll truly be me.

written may, 28, 2013 - 3 yrs ago today

Jealousy*

Complex, full of rage and 
fear of abandonment
and humiliation
doing more harm than good
causing conflict and pain

* Inspired, in part, by the words in this description:

Jealousy is a complex emotion that encompasses many different kinds of feelings ranging from fear of abandonment to rage and humiliation. Jealousy can strike both men and women when a third-party threat to a valued relationship is perceived, it can be a problem among siblings competing for parental attention, or envy after a more successful friend. Conventional wisdom holds that jealousy is a necessary emotion because it preserves social bonds, but jealously usually does more harm than good, creating relationship conflict and strife. - https://www.psychologytoday.com/basics/jealousy