Sunday, January 27, 2019

If I could remember 
that G-d and his angels, 
and me and my angels, 
are all with me in bed, 
I'd feel less lonely, 
and I'd be less afraid,
I'd feel more secure and
more comfortable now
about going to sleep.

Friday, January 18, 2019

Werner of Windsor Park (written on night of second Yahrtzeit)

A young child, on board a boat, fleeing for his life, his dad playing the slots,
His dog Waldman left behind with relatives who would be murdered by their neighbors
He plays baseball and hopes to go to games at the Polo Grounds, maybe to make the majors
He hangs out with friends, gets bored by mumbled words in Synagogue, dances and canoodles with girls,
He delivers chickens from his dad's butcher shop, and shines shoes on the street,
Goes to city college, gets a sales job that he keeps for 50 years, saves, invests,
Loses his dad in his twenties- heart attack, at work, his mom not long after- diabetes
Serves in Panama as an office clerk, writes detailed letters to friends,
Marries a non-German Jewish girl, leaves Washington Heights for Queens, stays for 60 years
Buys a modest house, commutes to city for work, has two kids, two heart attacks, survives
Gives his sons a Jewish education, says often he regrets he didn't get one himself
Dotes on his sister,and her family, before and after they move to Israel
Repeats routines: work, family, the day to day quiet heroism of a seemingly simple life
Eventually retirement can't be staved off, nor a backwards fall down a flight of stairs,
He continues to survive, like a Superman who never puts on the costume, but the bullets still bounce off
And he sticks it out with his wife, till the day she dies, soon after his mouth to mouth resuscitation is unsuccessful
And he becomes an old man in his eighties, in assisted living, playing poker for pennies
He spends his time with a widow his age, a sweet Israeli woman named Sarah, who reminds him of his mother
And he gets colds that he brushes off as nothing, because they are nothing, until one is maybe pneumonia
And he's taken to the hospital where he leaves this life,
And he lives on, in the heart of this poet, his son, who loves him and is loved by him, always.

Sunday, January 6, 2019

About twenty eight years ago
I dated a woman who was twenty two
and I was about twenty eight
and we went to to dinner
and she had three appetizers
(instead of a main dish)

And then I took her to
a broadcasting museum
that was showing rare
footage of Lenny Bruce
who she found so sad that
she had to walk out on him
and also walk out on me
because I had to stay there

We've passed each other
over all these years, and she's
had ideas of people for me
and it's amazing to me how
different our essences seem
how we're each propelled
by such different things.

And tonight out of the blue
a friend texted me to call
that woman, and I asked why
and he asked why not, said
she was feeling blue, and my
call would cheer her up, but
I shouldn't mention him... 

Later I woke up and went
and stared at my screen
watching Mrs. Maisel and
her mentor, Lenny Bruce
and I saw his sadness, and
I sighed a prayer for all
sad people standing alone

Saturday, January 5, 2019

I wonder how, but
I know it just is; some folks
don't empathize much.
It may go with out saying,
but I really feel for them.